A Final Reflection (This is a combination of journal entries turned in as part of the program’s academic requirements)I have done a lot of traveling and been on three previous study abroad trips. Somehow though, no country has touched me the way Tanzania has. There are many reason I chose to come to Tanzania but I have to admit a big part of it was to kind of prove to myself whether ‘I could do it.’ Well parts have been easier than I thought and parts harder, but I am happy to say that the basic answer to that question is now yes. And I also think that I have become a better and stronger person because of this trip.
I know that compared to the life of most Tanzanians, my life these past five months has been incredibly easy. Most of the time was spent in a guarded building with running water and flush toilets, a reliable source of food and clean water only a five minute walk away. I came with a laptop, malaria medication, sunscreen and a bank card full of money – not things a Tanzanian generally has (though of course they don’t really need the sunscreen anyhow....). But I know that compared to my life in the U.S. of course, there were hassles I had to deal with here such as the hot sun, unclean water and bugs the size of small birds. Besides of course, dealing with the different cultural aspects. Life has been harder, but actually no as hard as I thought. I never ended up having to haul water up eight flights of stairs, the cool shower always felt refreshing not a freezing shock and I have actually never even gotten sick – which I was planning as part of the experience actually. I feel like life here is not harder because it is a developing country – which what most people were scared for when I told them I was coming – but just because it was a culture more different from my own than other countries I have traveled to.
Why is this study abroad trip different than my other trips? I think it might boil down to the fact that life in Tanzania has challenged me more than my studying and traveling in other places. Let’s face it: a semester in Norway is more like a vacation, a chance to travel and be very independent, which I love. Tanzania though, combined this independence with a non-Western experience. I love to travel as is apparent, but this was the first time that there were days that I wanted to go home. When I came out of the other end of those times though, it made me appreciate where I was even more and see again how much this experience is shaping who I am today. I am certainly independent here too and have become surer of myself, but I here I am also very dependent on others: whether this is cooking my food, translating the language or just getting around.
Part of it I know is how welcoming this country is, as a guest, and as a white person. I have been able to make friends my age as well as go to peoples’ home and visit with their families and such. I have been able to see large parts of the country so feel a connection with it. And since I did take an archeology class, I have to say the part of me thinks that I have this connection with this land because of course this is where we all as humans started. I feel closer to the country maybe because the nation focuses just on that – the country. It is easier to connect to a tiny rural village anywhere than a bustling and impersonal city, no matter how much I do love them. Tanzania is certainly of country of tiny rural villages so that could also be a factor.
Tanzania is a ‘developing country,’ and therefore is in the process of change. Seeing this transition period, I can’t help but wonder what the country will look like if (when!) I return in 2, 5, 10 or 20 years. I have a fear that eventually the world will all look like the United States or Europe and I hope against this. It is a hard balance for me because I want Tanzanians to have a better life, but perhaps selfishly I don’t want the country to change. I want to still be able to drive past women carry humongous bags of charcoal on their heads, girls filling up buckets of water at communal wells, I want to bump along on unpaved roads in a Land Cruiser, I want to buy my vegetables from a poor farmer on the side of the road and my cookies out the window of a bus. I want to take the train across the length of the country and go miles without seeing a house, to see the different styles of tiny mud and wood huts in different regions and boys herding cattle in the hot sun. These thing have been part of my experience here and what I think of when I think of Tanzania. Again, I know it is selfish because I am over-romanticizing quite a bit parts of life here that I like to observe but would never survive myself if I was to take part in them. I hope therefore that development does take place but that it is able to a more African manner and the core beliefs, systems, and traditions remain as peoples’ lives are improved.
I am going to miss many things about Tanzania. I have woken up some mornings at 5:45, something that if it happened in the States, I would groan and try to snuggle back in my sheets. But here it makes me feel incredibly happy just because the peacefulness of the moment and that I could hear Tanzania around me. Roosters crow though I had yet to see any dawn on the horizon. A dog barks in the distance. The frogs are loud in the creek but do not cover up the sounds of the African insects chirping. And then faintly floating into my room is the sound of morning prayers from the mosque on campus, a beautiful song at any time. It is especially cool and I just lay on my back under my mosquito net and try to savor the moment for all it was. I am going to miss this country. A (never complete) list of things that I will miss:
The sounds of the insects making it so quintessentially African
Monkeys wandering around campus (especially with their babies)
The view of the Indian Ocean
Cheap food – and fresh fruits and vegetables
Walks to Survey with a nice breeze
Appreciating being cool
A cold shower after a hot walk
Not caring about time
Sounds of laundry being washed in the morning
Vines and creepers hanging from trees

Appreciation of internet, power and running water (not necessarily in that order)
Never having to worry about what time the bus was going to come
Colorful money
Sunsets with the sun double the size it is at home
Going over to peoples’ houses as guests
Cooked bananas
Traveling by daladala
Watching rural landscape go by from a bus window
Women carry loads larger then some small cars on their heads
Food that is delicious but very simple
Laundry laying out everywhere on the ground to dry
Wrapping take-away food in newspapers
Waking up when it is actually cool out
Lizards defying gravity
The fabric market
Bajajs
Greeting everyone I meet
The man-kissing advertising water and snacks
Swims in the pool on hot days
Walking up the stairs through the trees with vines hanging
The amazing feeling of cool air on your face when daladalas start moving again after being stuck in traffic
Machete lawnmowers
The two “hot” taps in the bathroom: one which gives cold water and one which doesn’t work at all
Pulling the mosquito net out in the morning and getting a fresh breath of air
And, of course, the people.
Anything you don’t know about just ask me about next time you send me an email! I will never tire of talking about my trip.
There are so many other things I wish I had time to talk about: African time and TFT, missing the crisp fall weather of home, how Tanzanian ladies laughed at us wazungu when we also went to the bathroom in the bush – and for that matter don’t care about pit toilets, the notion of theft here (my phone was stolen but really can’t care that much), not knowing Kiswahili enough, standing out in a crowd, hilarious kitenge designs (i.e. house keys or Nintendo controllers), Tanzanian television and the randomness of things people have hanging up inside their homes. It’s an entire culture – there is always something else to explore! Guess I just have to return someday and continue my personal and cultural growth.... Or maybe with all that I have written already in this blog, my academic journals and my personal journals, I'll just write a book about all of it or something....